It's me you love.

I hate the fact that my exams have taken up so much of my time. It's almost over, though, and then I'll have time to get back to my writing. I think that's why I'm so stressed, lately. I've had little to no time to write a good drabble, fanfic, or even to think about the lovely charries of HP.

As soon as exams are over: HP marathon. I'm'a read all the books again, one right after the other. I hope my mum doesn't mind me joygasming all over the place. I hope that work won't take too much of my time. Heh. 

*writes for the Malfoycest challenge*

Long time no post-y. I keep this more as a writing journal than a journal... That bad? Hmm.

Anywho:

Regulus x Remus drabble. About 300 words. Because this Saturday is a boring one.

The world is a disgusting place. My sister, though we seem to come from two different worlds, is still my sister. I hate her style, her music, her friends, but no matter what, I'll always defend her. Especially on the ride home; the school bus is a cruel place for her kind. Calling her a slut and a whore and making jokes about her getting raped and liking it... Needless to say, I've nagged my way into the minds of several moronic males in my year. I might think she acts a little too provocatively and immaturely, but she doesn't deserve that. Of course, she laughs at their jokes while I defend her, but that's a frustration for another time.

This morning, my sister was sporting a very nice strapless top. I don't wear clothes like that because I don't feel comfortable in them (and why wear something I don't feel right in?) but it was  quite nice on her. It looked almost elegant. It was pretty. Flattered her. All that jazz. For once, I approved. Heh. 

On the walk home from the bustop, though, she tells me what people at school were doing: five times, people had come up to her to pull her shirt down. It's a fairly easy task, what with the lack of straps, but who in the hell does that? The first two times it was her friends, she said, which didn't bug her too much (again, a rant for another time) but then three random people pulled it down during the course of the day. 

Something is wrong if in our society, we think it fine to do such a thing. Pisses the hell out of me. Thank God she had a sweater in her locker. It's not secret that she can fend for herself - whorish at times or not, she's friggin' strong - but this is deeper than that. 

Young girls nowadays are going to have complexes, I'm sure, and there's not much we can do about it. It's not only their clothing, because every era had their set of provocative clothing. The fact is that there seems to be no respect left in the world. No one seems to care that this is happening. Parents and teachers are still lenient, and dress codes still aren't kept to. A lot worse can come of people acting like morons towards girls like this, and I'm just afraid my sister will have to be a part of it. There needs to be a revolution. 

God, I wish I lived in the seventies.

Pairing: Harry/Sirius, mentions of Sirius/Remus
Length: ~1 500
Warnings: Rimming, rated NC 17, bondage, lots 'n lots of dirty talk.
A/N: Dunno if I'm'a continue it. But hey! First HP smut! Hope I did good.

Finished my eco test early. Was thinking of coney!Harry for the remaining few minutes. Damn fanfiction.

starcrossdkayla wrote a lovely fanfic with bunny!Harry, who is Snape's coney. (Coney = species that looks human, save for the bunny tail and bunny ears). The story is called A Bunny's Tale, and I recommend it. It's on her insanejournal.

I uploaded it on DevArt because I've no idea how the upload an image on IJ works.

http://fifthmarauder.deviantart.com/art/A-Bunny-s-Tale-81019216

Sweet.

I've made an account on www.gaiaonline.com . Guess my username? Heh. It's a really interesting website. I'd been on roleplaying forums before, but none like this. This is way more than just a forum. There's an avatar you get to have, and you can buy it items, as well as there isn't only roleplaying. There are tons of things to do, and I'm shocked I wasn't sucked into it sooner. My friends have it, but I always just thought they exaggerated when they spoke of how awesome it was. I still think their praises are a tad exaggerated, but it's still cool.

Now, I just need to find a way to make my own profile.

Wootness! I hath finished the second chapter of my three chapter Sirius x Remus fic. I'm wonderful. Admit. It was starting to become rather angsty, though, and I don't want to lose the humour that made the first chapter how it was. The end is angsty, I find, but next chapter will be full of apologies and wooing of fearful sorts. Beware! A determined Sirius Black is dangerous!

I'll read it over tomorrow to find any errors before I post it on ff.net and the HP_Slash and... Shack and... whatnot. 

One of my old works. Found it on my hardrive and edited it a bit. Could have been a lot better had I just rewritten it, but... Procrastination is my backstabbing friend, unfortunately. 

Anyway, it's the story of a very young Harry as well as a very young Draco. I think it's cute. The first time Harry realizes he doesn't want to be like the family who keeps him under the stairs.

How can anyone say: "Jesus approves of such and such"? It's completely irrational! I attend school with idiotic, brainless twits, I do. Ugh, they frustrate me so bad... I feel like I'm going to boil over. How can anyone know what Jesus approves of? What God would approve of? I hate that I'm more religious than the average person. People are starting to notice I get offended easily.

I've nothing against Atheists or any other religions. You have a right to believe in what you believe in. I cannot say one religion is right over another; nor do I completely agree with all aspects of all religions. What I'm annoyed by is people who claim to be atheists, but don't really 'not believe'. They're simply too lazy to explore their thoughts, to take the time to wonder what they think happens after death, why they should act certain ways, what repercussions there will be to certain actions. I believe that common sense is something Extremists seem to lack: killing in the name of our Lord is not something he would approve of. Terribly sorry. Neither would be berating other religions. So long as we put no idol before Him, it's fine, right? Who says I can't be friends with someone who doesn't believe in Him, or who believes in something different? It is my choice just as much as it is theirs, and I'm sick and tired of people giving me bizarre looks when I'm the only one who speaks out for our Saviour, Jesus Christ.

I've ranted on about something that was not my initial topic. *sigh* 

I don't care if it was as a joke. To go up to the front of the class and have someone say, after a presentation on abortions, that "Jesus approves abortion" made me see red. It was completely insensitive and moronic. Who the hell knows if Jesus was for it or not? What right do these people have to use the name of my Lord like that? I'm not for abortion, not against it, I think it's completely situational and circumstancial, but that's besides the point. I was offended that they say something like that, and I seemed to be the only person who was. I'm not an Extremist, at all. I don't even go to Church unless it's for a wedding or baptism or such. But for someone to go up there and put their words in the mouth of such a religious figure made my blood boil.

What? What is this? I wrote something original? I shock even the inner-most parts of my soul, sometimes. It's bizarre. First time writing anything over the parental guidance (13) limit, I think. And it wasn't even with my favourite puppies. Oh well.

Warnings: Minor/Pedophilia, inexperience, slash of the male variety, oral pleasure, voyeurism, gloryholes. This is NC-17. 

Feedback? Not that I think anyone reads this journal besides myself...

Whilst I wait for inspiration to hit me so I may continue my RonxDraco - butnotreally oneshot, I've decided to do this quiz I stole from Sydney Snape on ff.net. It looked like it would hold my attention, at any rate.

00.) Randomly list twelve of your favorite Harry Potter characters:
Sirius Black; Draco Malfoy; Ronald Weasley; Bill Weasley; Nymphadora Tonks; Remus Lupin; Harry Potter; Bellatrix Lestrange; Tom Riddle; Lucius Malfoy; Gilderoy Lockhart; Severus Snape

01.) Have you ever read a Six/Eleven fanfic before?
Remus x Gilderoy? No, actually. I have read Snape x Lockhart, though...

02.)Do you think Four is hot? How hot?
H'oh yeah. I need a drool bucket just thinking about him. Even after Fenrir attacked, he's still sexy as Hell. Scars make a man.

03.)What would happen if Twelve got Eight pregnant?
If Snape got Bella preggers? That'd be one messed up kid... The new Dark Lord, without a doubt. (Hey, if he slept with Bella and got her pregnant, he'd be totally dark. None of this good!Snape crap, yeah? It'd be one hell of a problematic child.) The world would have to be on guard.

04.) Do you recall any fics about Nine? Can you recommend any?
Uhm, the Harry Potter books, maybe? That's not a fic, but it's better. A story about Voldemort? Hmm. I wonder. That was sarcasm, by the way. And I'd recommend "Possess Me" by Ciiah on fanfiction.net. It's a Voldemort/Harry story. I found it really interesting. (Plus Harry's turning dark, which always makes things interesting.)

05.) Would Two and Six make a good couple?
Remus and Draco? Chyeah! That might just be for me, though. Remus is my favourite character, and Draco is right behind him, tied with Sirius. How could two of my favourite characters not make a good couple? Plus,. we all know that Draco is dying to go shopping for someone... It'll give him an excuse to spend.

06.) Five/Nine or Five/Ten?
TonksxTom or TonksxLucy? Hmm. Dunno. Lucius, methinks. It wouldn't be very pleasant, though, I'm sure. Bella might hand over her neice to her brother in law, to 'train' her into becoming a respectable young woman, or at least, train her not to be a waste of flesh. Wouldn't be a fluffy fanfic, I'm sure.

07.) What would happen if Seven walked in on Two and Twelve having sex?
Harry walk in on Draco and Snape doing it? Dear Merlin, how many fanfics do you think are out there with a million different kinds of reactions to that? Well, in my opinion, it would be like:

"YOU BASTARD! No wonder you get such good grades!" And then he'd storm off and sulk. Poor Harry.

08.) Make up a summary for a Three/Ten fanfic.
Ron and Draco have something going, something casual, something unimportant, and it isn't long before Ron yearns for something more. But what happens when the only person able to make him happy is his boyfriend's father?

09.)Is there any such thing as a One/Eight fluff fanfic?
As soon as Bella is involved, there is no such thing as 'fluff'.

10.) Suggest a title for a Seven/Twelve Hurt/Comfort fic.
"Time Heals All". I want to read a SnapexHarry hurt/comfort fic now. Damned quiz.

11.) What kind of plot would you use if you wanted Four to de-flower One?
AHAHAHAHAHA! As if Sirius could ever be a  virgin... That was an amusing thought. Mmkay, well, I'll assume you meant ass-virgin. I'd make it a humorous fic where the eldest Weasley tries to seduce the infamous Black. I'd add in something with a motorcycle, too, because we all know Bill has serious thrill issues. (Working at Gringotts is one thing, but working with curses in the pyramids of Egypt? Tut-tut...)

12.) Does anyone on your friends list read Seven slash?
Pair Harry with another bloke? What? That's unheard of! [/sarcasm]

13.) Does anyone on your friends list read Three het?
Unfortunately, I'm quite positive that people read Ron/Hermione fics. Ugh. It's so... canon. The only canon couple I'll enjoy is LilyxJames! You hear me?! Everything else is wrong! W-R-O-N-G, wrong!

Btw, I'm ignoring this whole 'friends list' thing, because I've no friends on here.

14.) Does anyone on your friends list write or draw Eleven?
I've seen many a drawing and many a fic of Gilderoy, yes. HP is such a great fandom like that. I could have written the most obscure character, and I'd bet one hundred dollars that there would have been a fic or drawing of him/her.

15.) Would anyone you know write Two/Four/Five?
I WOULD! Draco/Bill/Tonks. H'oh yeah. Here's how it would go down: Bill and Tonks are seeing each other, but Tonks would be like 'Hey, know what? We could totally do with an extra pair of hands. And that cousin of mine is pretty hot' and then Bill, because he's into kinky shit, would be all 'Let's go for it!' ...Ah... the wonders of my mind...

16.) What might Ten scream at a moment of great passion?
"PEACOCKS!"

17.) If you wrote a song-fic about Eight, what song would you choose?
Something twisted... It's Bella, after all. OH NO! Not twisted! "Ding Dong, The Witch Is Dead!" 

On a more serious note, I'd probably use "No One Mourns the Wicked" from the Wicked broadway. It would be a sad, depressing fic, no doubt, but it's something I would do.

18.) If you wrote a One/Six/Twelve fic, what would the warning be?
Warning: underage alcohol consumption, a scheming Sirius Black, unwashed hair, and unproper use of chocolate.

19.) What might be a good pick-up line for Ten to use on Two?
Lucius to Draco: "Your mother will be out for a few days." This would be followed by the infamous Malfoy eyebrow waggle.

20.) When was the last time you read a fic about Five?
A while, actually. I haven't been reading too much Tonks fiction as of late. Must be because of all the slash invading my mind.

21.) What is Six's super-secret kink?
He likes to dominate. <.< IT'S THE ALPHA IN HIM!

22.) Would Eleven shag Nine? Drunk or sober?
Gilderoy shag the Dark Lord? You bet he would! Sober, no doubt. It'd be what he'd write his next book on. I bet he'd love to shag (or be shagged by, even) the most powerful wizard of his day. I'm surprised he didn't try to seduce Dumbledore.

23.) If Three and Seven got together, who would top?
Ron and Harry? Ron. He's taller. That's the protocol!

24.) "One and Nine are in a happy relationship until Nine suddenly runs off with Four. One, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Eleven and a brief unhapy affair with Twelve, then follows the wise advice of Five and finds true love with Three." What title would you five this fic? Name three people on your friends list who might read it. Name one person who should write it.
Sirius? Happy? With Voldemort? Obviously it was a lie, he couldn't have been happy. Perhaps he went to the Dark Lord when James nad Lily were betrayed, or perhaps he was the one who betrayed them. So he remained as the Dark Lord's lover to fill the void he'd caused. But Bill would have brought the light back into his life, would have brought back happy memories, memories of dangerous stunts and happy laughter and risks and joy. Wait, wait. Voldemort runs off with Bill? I dun't like that. I like what I just said. BOO! Fine, fine. New scenario:

Sirius did betray the Potters, and stays by Voldy's side, loving the dark side of everything. Voldemort has his fun way with the former-Marauder, but loses interest eventually, instead going off with the new toy he'd found in Egypt, Bill Weasley. Sirius, torn, has a hot one night stand with the sexy celebrity, Gilderoy Lockheart. His cousin (second cousin) Tonks catches whiff of all this and has a long talk with the torn Sirius Black. After much convincing on her part and stubbornness on his, Sirius realises that not Voldemort nor the hot Lockhart could mend his brocken heart. Only... Ron can? The brother of the man who'd stolen his initial love away? 

This sounds way too dramatic for me. x_____x I'm sure people would read it, though.

25.) How would you feel if Seven/Eight was canon?
My reaction: WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE BIZARRE PAIRINGS THAT ARE CANON?! *storms around, stomping feet like a spoiled brat and throwing things everywhere before bursting into tears*

Not part of my new table = unprompted. Chapter one of a three chapter fanfic. I'll be posting it on FF.net  and the slash HP asylum I'm a part of later. It's still untitled, but hopefully I'll have something catchy before I post it in areas more public than here. I'm also currently thinking up an appropriate summary.

I can't join a community since I haven't been living for eighteen years as of yet, but if I copied the table and did it of my own volition - without posting it on that community - would I be punished in some form or another? Is there a law on IJ that says I can't post anything over a certain rating, or does it simply say I cannot read anything over a certain rating? I'm not sure. I'm also quite confident that no one reads this, so I shall be forever dwelling on such a thing...

One prompt down, twenty four more to go. I really am eager to finish it. I've mentally attempted to do table challenges before, but I had failed. After getting it, I would tell myself to write, but then I'd end up procrastinating until all memory of it was gone. This time, since I've commited (by claiming) I shall write it all. I swear to thee, oh mystical journal.

Here goes my first attempt at completing a table. Wish me luck.

Affection	Breaking Up	Candlelight	Cinema	Club
Concert	Dancing	Dressing Up	Firelight	Flowers
Gifts	In Private	In Public	Jealousy	Kiss
Love	Making Up	On the Town	Picnic	Restaurant
Romance	Staying Home	Stood Up	Theatre	Under the Stars

Oh, the woes of me. How shall I go on without sleeping in on the weekends, without watching my late night shows? How will I react when there's an actual reason to not to the work that school never ceases to stop piling around me?

Obviously I jest. I'm glad that I'll have something to do instead of rot away in my imaginary social life. The boredom has started annoying me. (Who'd've thunk?) A job will be good for me, I'm sure. It's time I started learning a tiny bit more responsibility. Last year of high school pretty much requires concentration, though. That basically means that computer time might be cut a bit. Hmm. I doubt I could live without the internet for too long. It's got a firm grip on my mind, as it does most bloggers, I'm sure. I'd love to stay and further explore the insane-dwellers home, but I'm off to get ready.